Lately my dreams have been strangely real, in the manner that when I wake up in the morning they seem to apply to my real life.
Last night I had two simple dreams. In the first I was seated in a classroom. A woman was in front, taking a photo of the people in the class. I was toward the front. About 6 people were scattered behind me.
Before taking the photo, the woman told me (this is strange, but it will make sense in a minute) to flip all of my hair forward, and then let it fall back again, to kind of fluff up my hair so it would look nice in the photo. I tipped my head forward and all of my hair fell over my face. Right at that instant she took the photo.
I was so frustrated! She had asked me to move my hair, but then waited until my face was covered to take the picture. She refused to take another. Everyone else would look normal. I would be seated in the front, a faceless person, covered in hair.
The next dream was about being with a group of friends I haven't see in a long time. We were talking and catching up. But every time I had something to say, someone spoke over me. Every single time! So frustrating. Nobody heard a word I said.
Before church this morning I was sharing with one of the dancers about my frustrating dreams. She said, "It sounds like you are feeling unseen and unheard." Hmmm... That is exactly how I felt in the dreams, and exactly the way I am feeling recently in real life.
Two nights ago I had a really productive dream. In real life I have felt angry toward someone. I have been trying to forgive the person, but I am still too angry. Although I am fully aware that my anger only hurts me, I have not been ready to pardon the person and ask God to bless them.
I dreamed the person came to me and apologized for part, but not all of what happened. In real life when the person hurt me, I was strong and walked away with my head high. But in the dream I felt all of the hurt that I had pushed aside. In the dream I cried and felt all of the hurt I didn't allow myself to feel in real life. After the person finished apologizing for a part of what they had done, all of that hurt was gone. When I woke up it was still gone. I hoped it would last. It did! Today I am no longer angry and was able to pardon and bless that person.
Never thought that would happen through a dream, but I am grateful it did!
Today I visited a church in Los Pinos to watch the girls we taught all week perform there. It is a great church with a super nice pastor, but the whole time I was missing MY church. I love my church. I love the people. The leaders are incredible. And the presence of the Holy Spirit is so strong there. I fully enjoyed attending the church in Los Pinos. It's a great church! But it is not MY church. And that is fine.
