Saturday, September 3, 2016

He Knows

Today could have been a really crappy day.

First my the water heater in my shower died. I was long overdue for a shower, so I braved the freezing water. It was cold and uncomfortable. My Honduran friends scolded me for not heating the water on the stove. But who has time for that. They would also say that's why my cold has suddenly gotten worse.

Then I lost my phone. Turned out I left it at church, so at least it's in a safe place.

Then I bought myself a new hot water heater but it was the wrong one. (And a creepy guy was saying gross sexual innuendos as he was selling me the shower heater.)

Then I locked myself out of my house. Turns out my house is impenetrable. Which is a good thing 99.9 percent of the time. Just not today.

Who has their water heater die, loses their phone, and locks himself out of the house all in one day? Oh, and my towel bar fell off the wall when I tried to hang up my bath towel.

On the other hand, I got to experience a really cool new ministry at my church, the same creepy shower salesman came to my rescue when the store didn't want to accept a return, my phone was safe at the church, and it wasn't raining or nighttime when I was locked out of my house.

Plus God spoke to me really clearly at the dance ministry today and left me feeling very peaceful.

One of the families who recently joined my church has two sons and a daughter. The daughter is a talented musician and a really sweet young woman. The older son is a prophet.

I'm still getting used to all of this prophecy stuff. I know my Pastora is a prophet because God used her to prophesize in 2009 that I would serve in Honduras. But I tend to be on the more skeptical side when it comes to other people besides Pastora Ruth.

Pastora Ruth has chosen to allow Jeremy, the young man with the gift of prophecy, to start a dance ministry. They asked me to play the violin for their performance next week, so I went to the class today to get a taste of what they are doing.

God gave me a big treat!

As they started to pray Jeremy heard God's voice and ministered to many of the people there. Afterward he said that was very unexpected, but it was a beautiful experience.

He was ministering to the people in his class. Then he went back up to the altar and he stopped. He came back down to where I was standing and shared the most beautiful words from God. They were things that he couldn't possibly know. Things that nobody knows except God and me. It makes me cry to think about it.

Through Jeremy, God acknowledged the pain that I have felt for various reasons. He acknowledged the hurt that has damaged my heart, but is now being healed. It is amazing to be acknowledged by God. To feel heard and seen and understood by my heavenly father is all I need. God acknowledged the bad things as part of my past. He said I have been taken advantage of but that has already come full circle.

He said I have cried for the people I serve and it pains me because I can't help them all. At that moment I felt how God also hurts for ME the same way that I hurt for the people I serve. That was the most amazing feeling - to know that God is sad for the ways I have been hurt. I never imagined it that way before. It is healing to know that He feels my pain. He carries my burdens for me.

God said that He anointed me to serve here. Everything He said were things Jeremy could never have known. It was powerful and brought me peace to have the Holy Spirit confirm that God is here with me.

Although I suffered some inconveniences today, I am still grateful for this day. Today I understand that if my heart hurts, God's heart hurts too. In other words, He knows it, He sees it and He's got it handled.

Abigail, talented musician, sister of Jeremy








The class
Jeremy, leader of dance ministry, prophet