Thursday, July 21, 2016

Three visitors and one new reader

Literacy class today was extraordinary for several reasons. We found our lost sheep. We had lots of visitors, and we have one more reader! Plus another student is sounding out syllables really well.

My coworker and I went up early because one student missed four classes. She was out of town for three weeks, but last week she was in town and didn't show up. I was surprised because she has always been one of the most prompt and motivated students. I asked my coworker if we could climb the mountain early and pass by her house before the class to see what is going on. I thought maybe, after missing four weeks, she could be afraid to come back.

My Chikungunya was more painful than normal this morning and my legs were wobbly as we climbed. I was in a cleaning mood when I woke up, so I found clothes I don't use and hauled them along with me. Eventually we made it to the tippy, tippy top of the mountain and my coworker pointed out the house. The back was all sheet metal. I asked if I could come inside and was eagerly welcomed. It was one of the most humble homes I have ever visited. But the owner was very proud. She was excited to show us around her home.

Front of house
It's on the edge of the mountain
so I couldn't back up for a wider view



The view from window in the photo above
is gorgeous. It feels so peaceful.



The bathroom below


The kitchen and handmade oven



Mud bricks to build walls



When there is no running water...


She said she intended to come to class today. I still have my doubts, but she came and was able to almost catch up with the rest of the group. She started reading today! She also brought her niece. Our lost sheep is found, plus she brought a guest, and she is doing well.

Not only did we have a niece visiting, another student brought her husband who visits when he is free, and another lady brought her son. One student wasn't able to be there because her son is in the hospital. Otherwise, we had a full house. I love the fact that the students are comfortable enough and have the desire to invite their family to class.



Full house!



After hiking up to her house,
I am even more surprised
that she carries her own desk to class


The desk was a handy place for my coworker to give extra tutoring


Guest #1 - son of the lady above and photographer during class



Guest #2
Husband supporting his wife


Guest #3
Niece helping her Aunt



Here we are! Minus one student who is camera shy and one who couldn't attend today
I love this family


They spend a lot of time hauling wood for their oven

The kitchen



At the end of the day my coworker and our security guards stopped by my house. With Fany's permission the guard climbed our mango tree and tossed mangos down to our driver. The mangos were rotting and falling to the ground, where they stunk and collected bugs. I was happy to see them go to good use! Everyone left with a big bag of mangos and Fany got a big basket full. The tree is still really full, but we got all that were ready and within reach today. Avocados will be ripe soon!

Two funerals

After the previous post about feeling appreciated, my boss sent me a text message in the evening saying that she hopes I take time to relax while I am in the US. She said she believes my life will be a powerful testimony for the people I see at my high school reunion.She said without doubt I have been a tremendous impact for the team here and she gives thanks to God for bringing me to Impacto Juvenil! I hope my head doesn't get too big - hahahaha!

Yesterday I ran the club all by myself. Usually each club has 2 people in charge, but my friend and coworker had to go to a funeral yesterday. Her cousin was beaten and tortured beyond recognition. They found his body up on a hill Saturday and it took until Tuesday night for someone to identify him, because of how badly he was burned and stabbed and some other word which I didn't understand.

Sandra is sad, and also worried because the rumor is that her cousin had some dirt on some corruption going on within the police force. Supposedly, it was the (corrupt)police who did this to her cousin.

The rest of my coworkers went to another funeral yesterday. The mother of the police woman who guards our office door died. I knew she wasn't well, but last I heard she was recovering from surgery. So, that was a lot of death to deal with in one day.

The good news is, the kids were almost perfect for me. The ones who usually are most "active" were totally calm and well behaved. The quietest raised her hand and spoke out in class, which she never has before. We are really seeing the fruits of group therapy, where these kids are learning better social skills and talking out their problems!

I made a point to call their therapist today to tell her the good news. She was really happy to hear it. The kids have so many heavy things going on in their lives, this is really big progress for them. And I learned that I can teach the class all by myself, which also felt like an accomplishment.

Now off to literacy class! I am hurting a lot today. Much more than usual. Fany and I went for a walk yesterday. That could be why I have stabbing pains in my joints, or maybe not. Who knows. But I have no desire to stay home. I am excited to go and see the students.

This morning a lady also contacted me to say that she is mailing boxes of books to Honduras for the library. This is her ministry, which she runs from Texas. It will be fun to see what she sends. I told the kids yesterday. They are really excited about the idea of being able to borrow a book for a week.

Monday, July 18, 2016

Feeling Appreciated

This morning during our planning time my boss asked if everyone has their information collected to send out to the sponsors. Everyone has been talking about this, and working on it for weeks. Since we are an NGO that survives on the support of donors, we have to fill out reports so they know what we're doing. It makes sense. (It also motivated me to do a newsletter for my supporters, which I haven't done since I got Chikungunya.)

My boss told my coworkers that my photos saved them. She said they all take photos of the backs of people's heads. The kids are not smiling or looking at the camera and the quality of the photos is poor. She said none of my coworkers had any useful photos at all. She said the thing that speaks most strongly to the sponsors are photos and she is grateful for the photos I've taken. Without my photos they would have had nothing to show the sponsors all of the cool stuff we've been up to.

Then she encouraged coworkers to invite me to events within their communities so I can capture photos of everything we are doing. (I'm already invited to one on Monday, which will be fun!) She told the whole program that I have a degree in psychology, journalism, and I am a gifted photographer. She said I have a lot to offer and they should take advantage of my knowledge and talents.

Later in the meeting my boss's assistant raised her hand and told everyone that she wanted to recognize me for the great job I am doing in the literacy class. The lawyer started nodding in agreement. My boss's assistant visited the literacy class last week. She said she is really excited to see women she has served for 12 years actually reading. She can't believe the progress they've made! It gives her great joy. She could also tell the students really like the class. She asked everyone to give me a strong round of applause. Everyone clapped for me!

Then two of the psychologists talked about a training they attended last week in San Pedro Sula, a city three hours away. My boss stopped them in the middle of their report and told them she is really happy that they went, but I am a psychologist (by Honduran standards because I have a bachelor's degree in psychology) and I should go to all future trainings as well. Fun!

I love the program I serve. I love the way that I'm serving and the people I'm serving alongside. It's awesome that they appreciate me as much as I appreciate them.


Wednesday, July 13, 2016

Wednesday Club

This Chikungunya is not only driving me nuts physically, I am also losing my mind! On Friday I left the front gates wide open. Luckily, I took the garbage out as soon as I got home, so I saw that the gates were open. Monday I went to work thinking about a vet appointment. Somehow between 8 a.m. and 3 p.m. I totally forgot about the appointment. Today I left the front gate open again! This time I came inside and got to work editing photos. Fany called me to ask if I left it open on purpose, which of course I had not. I even let the cat outside twice. It's a miracle she didn't escape. If Fany hadn't gone to work on the plants in the garage, we may have left them open all night. Who knows what else I've forgotten that I never realized at all. Scary.

Our club was extra special today. A pastor in the community came with bibles and a study guide for each kid! He is going into schools and is also doing a campaign on the streets to hand out bibles. His campaign is called blessing invasion, or Invasión de Bendicion, which sounds much better in Spanish.

He told all of the kids they have the potential to be anything they want to be. Then he made an interesting point. Sometimes we talk about children being our future. He said the children need to be our present. It is right now that will determine their success when they are grown. For that reason they are important to us today. He told them he wants to see someone from this community be part of the Honduran government in the future. It was very encouraging and empowering.

We have a hard time getting our hands on Spanish bibles in Honduras. I haven't seen them for less than $25, so this was a really incredible opportunity. At one point he said he was handing out 4000. Then I thought he said 5,000. I'm not sure how many bibles he is giving away, but it's a lot. And his name is Pastor Angel. ♥

I had to do an interview today for the donors of my program so they will know what is going on in the literacy class. Afterward my boss's assistant, who is known to be grumpy, sent me a message thanking me for the information and for a job well done with the class. It was nice that she took the time to do that. I like the way we are treated at the organization where I serve. Obviously others do to. Every person started out as a volunteer. Many worked 8+ years before they started receiving pay. I've never heard of such a thing in my life, but my coworkers are proud to have done it.

Next week the organization is getting 20 new people. Just in the one year I've served, we've gone from 100 to 130 people. Now we are going to be 150. We used to occupy one building. Now we are overflowing in three buildings with desks in every corner. Not sure where we'll put 20 more, but they are welcome!

The kids were amazed by the smell of their new bibles

Pastor Angel telling them
they can be whatever they want to be

I discovered this boy really loves to read.
I will keep an eye out for books for him.


When given the choice of playing or reading
they chose to read their new books about values


Tuesday, July 12, 2016

12th Anniversary Retreat

Today we celebrated 12 years of Impacto Juvenil, or Proyecto Gedeón, as it used to be called back then.

We did a one day retreat together, played games, did team building activities, ate good food and enjoyed fresh air outside of the city. It was fun and special at the same time. It made me realize how much I enjoy every single one of my coworkers. Some of them have become my closest friends.

As we were driving to the retreat one of my friends said my boss is really happy with my work. She said yesterday my boss was looking over the photos I took and asked my coworkers if they like working with me. They told her I am "excelentisisisimo". That means I am very, very, very excellent! I loved to hear that my boss is pleased and of course it's great that my coworkers love me too.

Praying to start the day.

Human knots

I have learned to enjoy the dreaded "dinamicas"

At first this seemed impossible, but we did it!
Passing a plastic ball along 2 pieces of yarn
to land in the bucket

Taking a bucket of water to thirsty people in Africa
without touching the bucket

Emptying the water without touching it


Passing through an obstacle course
while tied together

I love these two
Mother and Daughter
Original members of Gedeón


Two more of my favorites

We had to do a cheer at the end.
It was pretty funny
I couldn't remember the words, so I figured I'd better dance
These are my closest friends.
I don't like cliques, but we are kind of one.

I still haven't learned to pose like a Latina.
After seeing this photo, they say they will teach me.



US!

We work hard but we also have a lot of fun!!



Sunday, July 10, 2016

Sunday

Today was a good day. I popped out of bed early and did a load of wash before church. At church I took photos for the first time in 7 weeks. Either I've been home in bed, or sitting at church unable to move since I got Chikungunya.

I missed taking photos! They turned out really well. We celebrated a baby dedication and the fact that Pastora Ruth was honored as a prophet last week in a group of well known prophets. Pastora Ruth was really pleased. I think it's great that she received recognition from someone outside of our church.

Afterward I did grocery shopping and then more laundry.

The pain is moving around, which is strange. It's strongest in places I never had pain before. I talked to a friend who got Chikungunya in September and was really sick until May. Most people say that it's tough for three months and then it starts getting easier. That's why when my boss told me to take the day off last week, I really didn't know how to respond. I told her that this is my life now, and I have to learn how to deal with it.

Here are some photos from church:

My friend Marta and her son, Samuel

My friend Natalie's daughter





Pastor Paysen



Baby Presentation



Saturday, July 9, 2016

I need a husband

Just had a flashback to a friend telling me that she was sick with Chikungunya and it got so bad she had to ask her husband to wipe her when she went to the bathroom. In that moment I couldn't imagine what she meant.

Today I'm wishing I had a husband.

I think the ten hour days at the campaign were too much.

Or maybe this would have happened anyway. Who knows.

Friday, July 8, 2016

Recapping the Campaign

This week was the campaign for pregnancy prevention. A year ago we did a similar campaign for 4-6th graders. This year we moved to Los Pinos and did it for 1-6th grades. In total 971 kids participated. It was amazing!

The first day we worked with the little ones. With them we talked about private vs. public parts of the body, good and bad touch, tell an adult if you feel uncomfortable about something, and stranger danger. They were so cute!

Each morning we all gathered in the school's soccer field. Then we divided into classrooms. Since I have been asked to help with English correspondence, I was also asked to take photos when I wasn't busy. The school is on four different levels. Ten hours of running around the school grounds was pretty exhausting.

The last day was a big festival. I had to go to the literacy class so I missed the final celebration. I saw photos and heard it was a huge success. The theme was "I Decide For Me" which was empowering for the littlest to the older kids.

Yesterday I went into the office to pick up some papers for my literacy class. My boss asked if I was feeling okay. She said I looked horrible and should cancel the class. I couldn't cancel, but I am lucky my boss understands Chikungunya. She understands that I am still not feeling well, even though it's now been six weeks.

My ankle was really swollen after the campaign.
This is very typical of Chikungunya.


I forgot to say, I also saw some kids I haven't seen since I left Buen Provecho. They were so proud to come and talk to me in front of their classmates, to show they knew me. It was cute. One of the kids I saw was Milagro! I used to have in the preschool class. Now she's in first grade. Her sister, Lourdes. was there too. I taught her to swim. It was great to see them! They say their sisters Lupe and Kenya are doing well too. Kenya and Lourdes are going to join the Impacto Juvenil Club in Los Pinos. I got that set up before I left.

Enjoy the photos!

Two of my favorite coworkers



STEPS OF SECURITY - Yell NO and run!



View of Los Pinos from the soccer stands



Praying

Singing

HONDURAS IS CHANGING!!!

How do bodies change as we mature?

500 kids share this tiny playground

I caught these 2 holding hands in 4th grade

Milagro and Lourdes with me!
A random girl who jumped into the photo on the left.



Monday, July 4, 2016

Daddy's Girl

I've been asked to help with the English communications for my organization. There is a person who is in charge of this, but she can't be everywhere at once. She asked if I could share what Impacto Juvenil does through social media. I don't think I'll be tweeting. Maybe instagram. Mostly I'll be taking photos and writing for newsletters and Facebook.

I do have a degree in journalism, but these days I don't write much except this blog. I've been told the quality of my writing suffered greatly as my Spanish improved. Guess I'm not good at writing in one language while speaking another. That makes this new opportunity more intimidating. I hope my first assignments turn out well so I'll feel encouraged and more confident. Most of our sponsors are English speaking, so my writing could have a direct influence on the donations my organization receives.

Today I was thinking a lot about the 4th of July. Since I am not an exceptionally patriotic person, it seems odd that Independence Day is my favorite holiday. But as I talked to Fany this afternoon, I finally figured it out.

Fany showed me photos of Honduran people within the US wearing red, white and blue on Facebook. She said it seems like everyone really enjoys this holiday, but she wasn't sure why. So I dug a little deeper into my own thoughts on the 4th of July.

Some of my favorite memories are of Independence Day, from the time I was a tiny kid until last year.

When I was little my father was the ambulance chief. He was also my idol. I dressed like him in blue jeans and plaid shirts. I would do anything to spend time with my Dad. Today I realized that my father is the reason the 4th of July is my favorite holiday.

I understand that as a country we celebrate independence on this day. But what I always loved about the 4th of July was that it meant I got to spend 48 hours straight, minus a few hours of sleep, with my father.

As I observe US holidays from a more outside point of view lately, I think we have gotten confused. Our priorities are misdirected. Christmas has become stressful and rushed. Some people overspend. In general, it's about the gifts and a meal. There is not much time spent thinking about what we are celebrating and why, because we are too busy decorating the house and trying to find the perfect gift. We don't even get much quality time as a family because we're too busy or too exhausted.

What I love about Independence Day is the simplicity:
Hamburgers, hot dogs and steaks, potato salad, corn on the cobb - none of this stuff is time consuming.
Flags, red white and blue clothing, sunblock - there's nothing you need for this celebration that breaks the bank.
Fireworks, a day at the lake, a bonfire, maybe a weekend of camping - minimally stressful and you can adjust it to fit your schedule, budget and family dynamic.

Let's face it. The fourth of July is THE ideal holiday. But the story is more personal for me.

As I was growing up my Dad was elected Ambulance Chief. He was super proud to be the Ambulance Chief, I think. He liked titles. That specific title meant that he drove the ambulance in the front of the Lyons Falls parade for the fireman's field days. (A two day festival with rides and food to raise money for the fire department, all culminating in fireworks on the 4th of July.)

This was a big deal for a few reasons. First, Lyons Falls had one of the best field days around. People came from all over to see our fireworks and ride our rides. Secondly, having my father drive the ambulance meant that I got to throw candy out the window for all of the people along the parade route. And I could blow the siren when I passed my friends. Yup. It was pretty cool.

The parade ended at the village park, which was packed full of rides and games and everything a carnival has, including the "carnies", most of whom I knew by name. My Dad developed a friendship with the "carnies" and each year I was so excited when they pulled into town. The man who ran the ferris wheel was our favorite. I'm ashamed I can't remember his name anymore. Sometimes he would let me have free rides or when it came my turn to get off, he'd skip me and I'd stay on extra long. I always thought he left me swinging in that seat at the peak for longer than other people were allowed, although looking back, I'm sure he was just loading up the chair below. He may not have even realized I was up there.

The point is, I felt really special on the fourth of July.

I was still pretty young when Dad let me sell tickets for the rides. My Dad liked to push limits. I think he was proud that I could handle that task at such a young age. And I think he enjoyed seeing people who were surprised that a little girl was handling ticket sales. I loved making my Dad proud. I loved that he trusted me to handle the money. All of the approval a young girl seeks, I found in abundance for those two days.

My father also let me pick one friend to help me sell tickets. I remember kids who normally weren't as friendly would suddenly want to hang out with me. I enjoyed the short spurt of popularity. But even back then, I knew it was false. I always chose the same friend to accompany me. Lisa.

It was actually a brilliant way for my family to keep track of me. While the chaos of the festival surrounded me, Lisa and I were locked inside a tiny booth all day. Dad brought me food and I was happy as can be. Sometimes he'd give us a break. Lisa and I would go ride the rides, but mostly we were happy in the ticket booth. He was proud of our dedication.

I remember when I was old enough to have a crush, one of my first crushes was on the guy who ran the "Round Up". That was the scariest ride in the park. It was a round platform that spun so fast it pressed your body weight against the cage behind you. You could lift your feet off the ground and gravity held you up. I don't remember what my crush's name was. I just remember Lisa and I called him "What's Up". I think that's all he ever said to us. We sat in the ticket booth and giggled about him. That was our great excitement for the summer. We were heartbroken when the two days were over. He packed up his ride and left.

After dark the atmosphere at the field days changed significantly. Most of the kids went home. But I got to stay and sell tickets. That was how I saw my first drunk person. I also remember seeing a person I knew threaten to throw himself off the Lyons Falls Bridge while his daughter, who wasn't much older than me, begged her father not to jump. I was young, but I knew it was a sad, sad sight. I remember my Mom being really uncomfortable. She didn't say anything, but I knew she didn't want me to see those things.

My Dad and I would finish selling tickets, then count all of the money. It was never a rush, although it was way past my bedtime. Then he'd drive me home at 10 or 11 p.m., which was really late for the girl whose bedtime was 8 o'clock until I was 13 years old. That's only a slight exaggeration.

I'd sleep on the sofa on the front porch. Somehow, that felt closer to the action. I made sure the door was locked because I'd already learned that drunk people could be unpredictable.  There were likely to be people passing by and I didn't want to miss a thing. In my little village, this was the most exciting event of the year. We felt famous for those two days.

My Dad would say goodnight and tuck me in on the third of July. A few hours later he'd wake me up to start day two. I remember realizing I was still tired. But nothing could keep me from going back to that park with my Dad.

I'm pretty sure this is not accurate, but in my mind the only time I saw my Mom was for the fireworks on the fourth of July. We'd head home before dark. If we were really little we went to sleep for a while. Mom woke us up in time to watch the fireworks show from our balcony. My brother and I sat in lawn chairs with sleeping bags if it was cold. We ate popcorn and watched each beautiful explosion until the year that the trees were too high and we couldn't see the fireworks any more.

By that time I was grown up. I didn't care so much about impressing my Dad. He didn't see much in me to be proud of. So we drifted apart. But for those years, when I was young, there was nothing like the love I felt from my Dad on the fourth of July.

Saturday, July 2, 2016

A Turkey on the Loose

I really don't get homesick. It's been more than four years and I only remember being homesick once before in all my time here. But today I am homesick.

In the past I have gone back to the US for the 4th of July. I've missed Christmas and Thanksgiving in the US, but I've never missed the 4th of July. I love eating the food we eat in the summer. I love hanging out with my Mom on her balcony, the fireworks, time with my nephews... But this year it just didn't work out.

The two things I miss most about the US (besides people) are live music and ethnic food. I miss Indian, Ethiopian, Thai, and sushi most.

The live music I like doesn't exist here. I never realize how therapeutic live music is for me. It's like my "reset" button. Every once in awhile I need to go and lose myself in live music.

Today, at this moment, many of my good friends are seeing live music in the US. They are all posting about it on Facebook. I think some good music could shake this Chikungunya right out of my bones.

Instead of losing myself in music, I lost myself in food. I didn't eat. I cooked. It was a wonder I had any ingredients to cook with because I am not going to be around much next week, so I purposely didn't buy anything.

I had quinoa, which I am trying to incorporate instead of rice or pasta in my diet. I had tomates. Fany gave me five limes and a bunch of parsley. And I had cucumbers for cucumber/pineapple smoothies.

I ended up making tabbouleh. As I finished cooking I realized something. Many times, I like cooking more than eating.

Healthwise, things are pretty good. Today the backs of my knees and my fingers ached. My back had that burning feeling between my shoulders as I was cooking. But otherwise I felt good.

Wednesday was a super good day. My back only ached a little while we gave the club. The club this week was interesting. It was about drugs and alcohol/peer pressure. In that community we have to face these things much differently in the US. Every single child in the room is effected by drugs or alcohol.

Thursday morning all of the volunteers had a training. It was really fun. When I left, I felt proud of where I serve. The trainers made boring things (like learning legal rights of volunteers) fun. We felt appreciated and valued.

Impacto Juvenil Volunteers

After the training everyone else went out to lunch and then they went to a water park. Although I was encouraged to go have fun, I chose to skip the outing because I had the literacy class that afternoon.

My knees hurt going up the mountain. I had to stop and rest every few steps. Going back down was rough on my knees too. But it was so worth it! Only two students aren't reading yet. They both have learning disabilities. But they still feel hopeful and eager to be in the class so I'm not going to give up. The rest are getting more and more confident.

Right in the middle of class, Doña Francisca started yelling about her turkey. One of her turkeys got loose so she sent her younger kids to chase after it. Not everyone has their class interrupted by escaping turkeys. Just one of the reasons I love this class:



Friday I didn't feel well. But I am focusing on being grateful for the good days. I'm hoping for a lot of them next week while I have to work on a pregnancy prevention campaign in Los Pinos.



This is Karla, the daughter of my friend Clara who passed away from Leukemia a few months ago. I first met Karla when she was 13 years old. Now she is all grown up and a teacher! She also has a paid position at Impacto Juvenil. Since school was on break she was able to come to the volunteer training. I love seeing the woman Karla has grown into and the way she serves with all of her heart. She teaches elementary school all week, then spends Saturdays with the kids of her club.

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Errands

I have today free since the sexual abuse prevention class hasn't started up again yet, so I took advantage of the free time to run some errands. My residency card expires this month so I was getting down to the wire.

Immigration was a mad house. The parking lot was extra full. I've never been able to park there. I always have to park in a local mall and walk through the streets with money and important papers. It's not ideal.

The line went outside the building and split down the length of the building both to the right and to the left of the door.

Part of the reason it takes so long is that they just don't have a good system. The seats were all full with family members but the seats are supposed to determine who is next in line. Nobody knew who was next. Most of the people were Hondurans getting their Honduran passports. But on my side there was a big line of Chinese people getting their residency for the first time in Honduras. I found that curious. Two hours later I was happy to have my new residency card in hand and get out of that place.

Last night Tigo emailed me a phone bill for over $100! Only hours earlier I was told that I didn't owe for this month. Confusing. There is a Tigo office near the parking lot for immigration, so I decided to talk to customer service. (Although they are a phone company, they have no customer service by phone.)

The lady I spoke to today told me this month is free, but I will never get another month free as a reward for paying on time. She also told me that my payment due dates are different from what the guy told me yesterday. Now I don't even know when my payment is due. If I talk to a third customer service rep I'll probably get a totally different answer. But at least for now I don't owe any money.

On my way to immigration I stopped to pay the mechanic. I was greeted there by the boy from the car accident yesterday. He said the accident was good luck for him. Today he started working as an office assistant for the mechanic! It's perfect because his parents pass by the shop before and after work, so they can drop him off and pick him up.

I thanked him again for being so gracious yesterday. I told him that I learned from the example he, his friends and his family set for me. He and the mechanic said these things happen. I congratulated him on his new job. He was clearly excited. So that in itself made it a good day.

Before heading home I went to three grocery stores searching for lettuce and broccoli for my new Chikungunya diet. Finally I found lettuce, but it was half rotten so I didn't buy it. Never found any broccoli. Sometimes the simplest things are so difficult in Honduras. I'll search for lettuce again on Friday when I have more time. Meanwhile I'm going to cook quinoa for the first time with spinach instead of broccoli for dinner tonight.

My body hurts more today than yesterday, but not as much as Saturday and Sunday. Right now the pain is in my fingers, knees, neck, toes, and the arch of my feet. My back only started hurting as I sit here to write. I think I am going to check the price of fish oil pills. They are supposed to help with sore joints. I do think the coconut juice helped. The bottoms of my feet don't have the sore, dehydrated feeling they have had for a few weeks. I'm going to keep drinking one coconut water/day.

Monday, June 27, 2016

Seeing God's Love in a Car Accident

Today after our morning devotional and planning time, my coworkers invited me to go out to eat. I wasn't hungry because we were served baleadas after the devotional, but I went along just to hang out. (Plus I didn't want to eat fast food because I'm reading that a good diet is important for Chikungunya.)

After lunch I went to figure out what is going on with my phone bill. When I went to the bank to pay it, they said I didn't owe anything. When I went to Tigo (the phone company) they said I owed $4.25, which still wasn't right for the monthly price. Turns out Tigo gives you every third month free if you pay your bill on time! That was exciting news, so I was pulling out of the mall feeling pretty good.

As I turned left, I thought I hit the curb with my right front tire. But the curb was too far away, so I looked all around and realized I had run into a car! I was shocked.

Guards came running, assuming someone would flee the scene, but we both pulled over. One of the passengers came over and asked if I was okay. I said yes and asked if they were. He said they were all fine. Everyone gathered around my bumper, which suffered the most damage. I stayed in my car, assuming the other people would be jerks.

Turned out they were some of the kindest people I've ever met. And it also turned out that it was my fault. I assumed, probably because they were young males, that they were driving too fast and ran into me. But as I looked at the damage, the angles made it seem like it was probably my fault.

I kept to myself and called my insurance guy. The other people were totally respectful about waiting. My insurance agent came quickly and we talked about our options. I told him from the beginning that it could have been my fault, but that I thought they were also driving too fast. We considered calling the police, but my insurance guy checked with the guard who said it was my fault. Another guy came from the insurance company. He agreed the evidence it looked like my fault.

We decided not to waste time with court dates and spend energy arguing. I said I wanted to do what is right. If I was at fault, I would pay. No need to involve police.

I can't say enough how nice the three young boys were. The accident cost them three hours of their day, plus some damage to their car. But they were always SO kind and thoughtful. Just sweet, sweet, young men.

When it was all over, the driver's father came to pick them up. I told the boy I wanted to apologize to his family too. He said it wasn't necessary. But I wanted them to know how truly kind their son had been.

Not surprisingly, the parents were just as nice. I apologized for the accident and told them their son was a complete gentleman. He immediately changed the subject saying, "She is sick with Chikungunya." The whole family seemed more concerned about my health than their car! They kept saying, "Accidents happen," and that they hope I feel better soon. Can you imagine?

Looking back on my day, it stinks that I had a car accident. But I learned some things.

First, if I am ever in a car accident again, even if I am SURE it was the other person's fault, I will not be aggressive or defensive. I will be kind and thoughtful. Those teenage boys were a perfect example of how to behave. I ran into their car, but they were gracious, thoughtful and kind. They were examples of God's love here on earth. My human nature was to try to place blame. In a moment that could have been stressful and negative, those young boys rose above human nature and made everything good.

The thought of having a car accident is horrible. But it's over and it really wasn't that bad. Nobody is hurt. The cars weren't damaged too much. I confirmed that I have a really great insurance agent who made me feel safe and well cared for. If I had to have a car accident, I couldn't have planned it better myself.

Also, I am hopeful that this family's mechanic may be my new mechanic, which would be a great blessing. I've been looking for a mechanic since mine suddenly went nuts this year. So far this new mechanic made a great impression. He is going to fix my car, as well as help me search for a new car and sell my old one. He has a used car lot in front of his shop. Although it would have been nice to go there under different circumstances, I can see some good things that came out of a bad situation.

Later, I was talking to my Mom and she asked how I felt physically. I told her that yesterday it hurt to stand up long enough to wash a cup and plate. Yesterday I felt exhausted lifting up my Crock Pot for only a few seconds. But today I stood in the sun waiting for about a half an hour and didn't feel any pain. My knees, hips and knuckles are sore to walk, but I didn't feel weak.

I could stand up! That made it a good day to have an accident. I smashed into the right car, with the kindest people inside. The car accident was a good reminder that things can always be worse, and sometimes a really crappy situation isn't so bad.

Sunday, June 26, 2016

Not Better Yet

Yesterday was a really crappy day. I figure I can say that because of the exorbitant number of times I start out with "Today was a great day."

I woke up with pain. Usually I feel best first thing in the morning. The pain hits me around 11 a.m. - 1 p.m. But yesterday it hurt to get out of bed. I was outside talking to Fany when I suddenly had the vertigo. I've never felt that way before. It was like my eyes wouldn't focus and I was bumping into trees when I tried to walk. I thought I was going to pass out. Fany helped me go back to bed at 9 am and that's where I stayed all day.

While I was in bed, I found this blog. It helped me feel like I'm not crazy. She didn't have the stomach problems I had, but she had crazy bleeding which I did NOT have. Thank God! As I read it there were things I remembered and thought, 'Oh yeah! That happened to me too!'

https://chikungunyablog.wordpress.com/

I am sick of people telling me I should be feeling better. I'm doing all I know to do, and I don't feel better. I'm on day 29, not counting the rash which came about 4 days before.

Tomorrow I'm starting the mediterranean diet. It is supposed to help with joint pain. Basically I'll try to cut out added sugars, while eating lots of fruits and veggies. Nothing processed and no red meat, which is how I prefer to eat anyway. I think I have access to most of the required food. It should be fairly easy to follow and not much more expensive than my current food budget. People swear they can feel a difference.

I was relieved to read in the blog about mood swings. I thought I was going crazy, but so did the girl in the blog. That strange sense of being healed, and then being so sick again! The blog girl had it. She also talked about not being able to follow conversations. My boss talked to me for a half an hour and I had no clue what she was saying. I thought I was going cuckoo. One more thing I could identify with was the odd sleeping patterns. Sometimes I would crash dead asleep at any hour of the day. Other times I would have crazy insomnia, even when I hadn't napped. Apparently that is "normal" as well.

Everyone across the board, from the doctor, to the blog, to the people in Los Pinos, are recommending coconut water. It's so expensive, but I think I may break down and buy some for a least a few days to see if I feel better. Fany swears it heals her parents after only a month. Worth a try.

Today I went to the gym. Everyone online was saying they kept exercising. I don't know how. I ended up lying on the floor and stretching. Every time I tried to exercise either I'd be exhausted after four repetitions, or in some cases, my body just wouldn't move. I used to be able to raise my straightened leg out to the side to hip level (to work on hips). Now I can only get my leg about a foot off the floor. That was disappointing.

I am really getting excited to go back to New York State for a multi-year high school reunion. I'm spending 13 days there. Yesterday while I was lying in bed I worked on arranging fund raising activities. My brother and Mom have gone back to where I grew up, but I haven't been there (except for my Father's funeral) in many years. Never thought I'd look forward to going to Lewis County this much. It's nice to have something to look forward to.

If I had to get Chikungunya, I am grateful about the timing. I have another month before I travel to NY. At work, the first group from parenting class graduated the day I figured out that I was sick. The conduct disorder kids are on summer vacation. The first group from sexual abuse prevention finished two weeks ago. Really, the timing couldn't be any better. Three of my biggest commitments are on pause.

Parenting classes will start up again at the end of July with a new group. Conduct Disorder group will start after I get back from NY in August, and the group therapy for sex abuse prevention will start the second week of July. I thank God that my lighter schedule gives me time to heal without feeling guilty or rushed. That's the happiest note I can think of to end on for today.

Oh, and my stomach is much better now. That's a really good thing too.


Thursday, June 23, 2016

We have another reader!

Today was a great day. I went up to the literacy class and Doña Maria Virginia started reading today! It was so funny. She started out without the glasses that we keep telling her she needs. For some reason she doesn't want to use them. So she was trying to read and finally she got frustrated, put on the glasses, and read! I asked if she would like to have a photo of this day. She said she would prefer a video!! (I love that!)

So here are the videos. First without glasses. Then with. And lastly, a short part of Doña Francisca singing her praise to God. I should have done a longer video of that, but I didn't want to be disrespectful of the moment. She said when she is singing she feel closest to God and doesn't feel any of the pain or stress of the world. When she sings, I feel the same.

https://www.facebook.com/mary.fager/videos/10210057436178838/ - trying to read

https://www.facebook.com/mary.fager/videos/10210057424818554/ - reading!

https://www.facebook.com/mary.fager/videos/10210057428658650/ - Doña Francisca singing

The ditch that surrounds the building is even deeper. I had a tough time crossing today. My legs felt weak. Doña Angelica, my 60 year old coworker, had to help me climb up.

New door and windows!





Two readers and a reader-to-be


Doña Angelica's club of 25 kids put windows and a door on the building while I was out sick for two weeks. Now we won't have to haul the dry erase board, table and chairs, up and down the mountain for every class.

Today's class was super small. Rosa worked late. Reyna wasn't at home. Luis and Nohemi were building Nohemi's house.

I am nervous about Nohemi's house. She and her husband are building it too close to the edge of a steep mountain. I'll take photos next week. This week there were people around and I don't like to pull out my phone to take photos when people can see me. That's asking to be robbed.

So now Nohemi, her sister Erika, and Doña Maria Virginia can all read!!! That is three out of seven students. I think that Rosa and Reyna will learn soon, but they sick and missed the last two classes. It will be more difficult for Luis and Doña Francisca.

I just realized I missed Doña Francisca's 50th birthday! I planned to celebrate it last week. She turned 50 on the 20th of June. But since I missed two weeks of class and was sick, I totally forgot until now.

I can't say I am feeling much better. I guess I am better because I am out of bed. I really want to go to the gym. But yesterday my elbow hurt so much I couldn't open the screen door. Today I got into the car after class and the driver asked if I was mad. I wasn't mad, in fact I was happy and excited. But I felt like a knife was stabbing into my back and my knees hurt. Apparently it showed on my face.

I can get along like this. I just have to be more aware of my facial expressions. I took the medicine that was prescribed to me, but it does nothing. Yesterday at the kids' club my coworker Sandra had all of the symptoms I had the first week. I'm worried for her.

Monday, June 20, 2016

The Land of the Living

It's 2 p.m. My work day ended early but not because I didn't feel well. I feel stronger today than I've felt so far. As my Mom would say, "I have returned to the land of the living."

I woke up early this morning, put on makeup and fixed my hair. That was a big step.

After our devotional and planning time, my coworkers invited me to go out to lunch with them. We went to a cute little place and I ate a huge plate of stewed beef, couscous and salad. I haven't been eating much, so I was surprised when I cleaned my plate. If I haven't had diarrhea by 5 p.m. we'll call it a complete success.

It was nice to eat out with friends. I can't remember the last time I ate in a restaurant. I think it was over Christmas when I was in the US. Everyone else headed out to run errands, but they sent me home to rest, even though I feel good.

I don't mean to sound negative, but I am not allowing myself to think that this means I am better. I thought I was better before. Then the pain came back I got really depressed. Instead of thinking about whether I am healed I am going to praise God for these pain free hours and say thank you to those of you who are praying for me. It's working!

Yesterday after finishing my blog (I think it was around 2 pm) I fell asleep. When I woke up it was 6:30 p.m. I've been doing that every day. But I don't think it will happen today. I don't have that feeling like I can't support the weight of my head and I don't feel sleepy.

When I woke up this morning only my fingers hurt. Then my left knee started hurting at around 10 a.m. That's when things usually begin to act up. An hour later my right shoulder, back and elbow were sore. But I feel much better emotionally and physically overall.

Today my coworker said that she wanted to announce something for everyone to hear about the work that I am doing. She said that for their community project, her club of kids (ages 10-14) chose to put windows and a door on the building where they meet. It is the same building where I give the literacy class every Thursday. She said that her kids were too little to carry everything up the mountain, but members of my literacy class came and helped. They told her they wanted to make the building nice for their class and for their professor (me). She said they were the first to pitch in and the last to leave. The project was supposed to be done in two days, but with their help, it was finished in one day.

Isn't that awesome!??!!! They are such great students. Not only are they dedicated to learning, they donated their whole Saturday to work on a community project with kids in order to make their classroom nicer. Now we won't have to carry the table and chairs and dry erase board up and down the mountain. The door has a padlock so all of our stuff can be locked inside. How exciting!

Sunday, June 19, 2016

Went Back to Church

I finally made it to church today. I missed the last two weeks. Everyone kept saying they were glad to see I am better. For some reason, that was really frustrating. I couldn't tell them that I really don't feel better.

Singing was hard because of the shortness of breath. The message included a lot of personal time with God. Sitting with my head in my hands during those times helped me make it through the service. I was still exhausted by the time it was over.

Two people at church got Chikungunya in the very first outbreak a year ago. Both told me they are still in pain, right now, today. I can't even say my spirits were dampened. I would say they were soaked.

Everyone wants to tell you their personal cure. One friend who said he is still in pain today told me to take a spoonful of honey with a touch of lime juice and some baking soda in the morning and at night for joint pain. He hasn't tried it, but he says it's supposed to work.  He told me about someone he knows who got a shot for Chikungunya which healed the man. But my friend didn't know what the shot was or where to get it. I never heard of a shot before and seriously doubt its existence. I kept wondering why he never tried these things if he has been in pain for all of these months and believes they would help.

There was a new lady attending church this morning. She just had a loss in her family. It must have been a child or husband. She appeared to be in shock, just sitting there with a look like she was barely hanging in. I felt guilty having a pity party for myself over Chikungunya because I know there are worse things in the world. But right now this feels pretty terrible.

Today I realized that I am really down emotionally, as well as physically. The idea of making it through the work week is daunting. But I have to get back out there at some point, so now is the time. I need to approach it day by day, instead of thinking of the work week as a whole. That makes it seem a little more manageable. And I need to learn to appreciate the good days, without reading into them as a sign that I am getting better because then when I don't feel well the next day, it won't be such a blow.